From victim to Creator

Seeing from the ‘I’ / eye of consciousness

It has often occurred to us that our journey of acquiring the land is not truly about acquiring the land, but rather the transformation of our consciousness that it catalyses.

At every junction so far — every time a deadline neared and wasn’t met and we secured an extension, we asked, ‘What more do we need to shift within ourselves to become the vibrational match for what we want?’ And more recently, ‘What do we need to see within ourselves as to why we are choosing this experience?’

And each time we dared to invite more expansion, we broke through another ceiling, another layer, to a new level of healing and capacity. Like in a video game, we have been reclaiming more and more of our powers.

Because we are choosing this. Not consciously of course, but the alchemical key is to make it conscious. There is something about the prolonged experience of ‘not making it yet’ (before we finally do), that has in fact been benefiting us — and also the project itself.

How could neos·life possibly benefit from this?

Depiction of an iceberg, showing that just like our consciousness, most of our manifesting power is below the threshold of our awareness.

Appreciating the threat of losing everything

As you know, Vincent has invested huge sums of money into this project — enough that would cause any normal person to have a breakdown if they risked losing it. And at this very moment, he is needing to contribute all he has left. I also personally invested all of my money into the project that merged with neos·life (the academy). This was not nearly as much as Vincent, because I didn’t have as much, but when you don’t have that much and you give it all, it’s just as poignant.

Yet for me it’s not just the money, because I've never been focused on money, but more the time and energy of dedicating my life force for years, being constantly in and out of burn out.

As you’ll know from previous newsletters, a big part of our journey has been the art of surrender and letting go. Yet there’s more to how we have transformed in the past 9 months:

When Vincent and I met and joined forces, we would still experience stress and anxiety, still fall into blame and frustration towards the world, and, within that wonderful high pressure cocktail that includes living and working together, occasionally come into conflict with each other, triggering each other’s old traumas. All great stuff.

Now, despite the risks getting higher and higher, instead of full stress there is a slight tremble before more calm. Instead of blame at the world, there is looking within ourselves. And instead of conflict with each other or trauma reactivation, there’s just more personal responsibility, appreciation, and trust.

The shift that has happened lies in anchoring in the realisation that the world out there is just a reflection, a projection, of what is within us, and, that from the perspective of your consciousness, there’s no ‘bad’ experiences.

Now this needs a lot more unravelling that is beyond the scope of this newsletter, but essentially, when you are no longer reactive to what your ego considers ‘bad,’ you reclaim your power from it because you no longer run from it, and thus you are set free. The magical thing is that at that point it stops showing up in your life.

When we anchor in the realisation that the world is a projection of consciousness, we reclaim our freedom and empowerment

The continuous expansion of capacity

Capacity is the gift this has brought to us regarding neos·life.

Many communities fail or are extremely challenged by the politics, drama and conflicts that cypher much the creative energy from a project. If the power play of social dynamics isn’t enough, then unprepared for financial stress, dealing with legal issues, managing a thousand and one projects simultaneously and so on can break a set of founders’ well intentioned dreams.

Whilst we obviously don’t expect everyone who becomes a part of neos·life to be free of their reactions and projections, at the very least, we, as core blueprint holders, need to be able to have the capacity to hold everything and deal with all conflicts gracefully.

Actually we don’t ‘need to’ — if we exploded into chaos that would also be an interesting life experience, but not one we intend to manifest for neos·life :)

This journey has been propelling us to a point where we can remain in a state of serenity and trust no matter the intensity of what is unfolding around us, and respond with compassion in the face of someone else’s reaction to us instead of taking it personally.

This training is utterly priceless and not something one can find or ‘buy.’

Only something that you feel called to from the depth and full expanse of your heart and soul can motivate such rapid and profound personal transformation. For some people it is a lifetime mission project like this, for others it is a life-threatening illness, or a huge loss like their home burning down, or losing a person you love.

When your heart has a calling for consciousness expansion and self-mastery, you will surely manifest the circumstances to ‘force your hand’ - and I guarantee you that you will be grateful for them in the end.

No matter what happens in our lives, when we see from the ‘I’ / eye of consciousness, it is all a truly remarkable experience to feel nothing but gratitude and awe for.

We simply wish to continue on this journey, continue expanding our capacity to feel appreciation and peace, and to share it with everyone who finds their way to us.

If this kind of initiation feels too exhilarating, then please be assured, we will be offering plenty of relaxing wellbeing experiences too — we all need different experiences at different times :)

A render of our more intimate and cosy practice space, perfect for ceremonies, meditation, yoga, sound healing, and anything else that elevates us

We are truly grateful for every one of you that reads our newsletters. There’s now more than 4,000 of you. It has made this whole journey feel even more worthwhile, and less lonely. We only wish that we knew every one of you, that we could see you, have a conversation and real connection.

So we invite you to engage with us in some way, in whatever form feels most natural for you - by email, a comment, an instagram message - just to share something about you, who you are, what following our journey has sparked for you. Anything.

And really, when we do finally arrive on the land, we hope to meet you face to face, share a meal, a dance, a song, or just a good conversation enjoying the stunning nature that surrounds us.

With much love,
Karen and Vincent

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